♥&Sugar

Wow. This is my 100th journal entry!

Uhm.

Kidney infections suck, and so does my biological clock that made me wake up at 7:30 AM on a Saturday when I finally get to miss work because of said kidney infection.

On another note, give me inspiration. <3 I'm going to try to sew this weekend.

It's that time of year again!

That's right...

It's SUICIDALADVENURE NATIONAL NOVEL WRITING MONTH TIME !!!!

Once again, this journal has been taken over for Noveling. I may update this, I may not. While I'm here, I might as well give you today's progress, and my current direction.

NaNo '08 Title: The Fantastical Phenomenon of the Augustine Academy Occult Club
Genre: Satire/Dark Humor/Horror-fantasty-what-the-fuck-is-going-on?
Day One Word Count(So Far): 5,238 words.
Currently on Chapter...: Three
Currently Feeling: Loving the supposed most annoying character in the entire book, and now wanting to change the plot to be nicer to him. Not happy about it.
A little excerpt for those who care?: I wait for the clock hands on my watch to turn to 9 before I attempt to push open the door, though before I can, the door swings open, almost hitting me in the face. Lucky for me, I stumble back just in time.

“Oh, sorry,” The culprit states as he looks around the door to see me cowering behind it. He’s cute, but there’s something off about him. “I couldn’t see you over the sounds of how awesome I am.”

Hello again, live journal~!

And yes, I am out of my emo-stage. The boy has come back. It was some time ago. I'm sorry for not updating you, LJ. Thank you everyone for all of your kind words!

Let's see... a life update on how crazy busy I am...

This weekend is: My zombie Halloween rave on Friday, probably lasting till 12 and cleanup till 3.. ugh.
Work at 7 AM the next day, Nov. 1st... not worth sleeping...
NANOWRIMO!!!!
Nanowrimo kick off party/write-in at noon on Nov. 1st, an hour after I get off work.. in Belleville at Riley's, with the whole Nano group.
Nanowrimo kick off party/write-in between the O'Fallon kids on Sunday...
And I still have to plan for Japanese class on monday...!!

I'm going to go crazy!

But I can't wait for Nano. ♥

Also, everyone join www.iknow.co.jp if you want to learn Japanese... it's fantastical. Though I don't have time to use it. Lol.

More work to do~ time to go!

Happy Halloween everyone! Pretty soon this will be my nano journal, where I'll whine about my progress. Perhaps. I may just do that on facebook, though. ♥

So Beast and I broke up.

The fact is, I love him. I love him dearly. But, as I suspected, him leaving took an effect on him, one that would change him and that I, being many many miles away, would not be able to fix. And after feeling like he didn't love me, I couldn't stay like that.

So we broke up..

I'm expecting to wake up to a "hey! hey! Heeey! Guess what? I love you!" text message, but I know it won't happen. Because I'm not there to pull him out of this and my words mean nothing when I'm this far (apparently) I'm not sure if it ever will.

So a tiny update... hopefully work tonight goes well, work has been alright for the past few days... this is my last night of work till Tuesday, horray for a big break! I've been playing WoW a lot recently after transfering my shadow priest to a new server... so now I'm playing with my Co-worker, Lewis, and his guild. They're all very friendly so I'm happy about that, except now I'm ignoring my hunter again! But that's probably because every time I get on my hunter, none of my friends are on, and I can't stand to be alone when I play. Brian has decided he's leaving me to go back to Florida because he gave up on trying to find a job. Really, I'm sure he's just homesick and doesn't want to be with me much anymore, because it would be so much easier for him to find a job if he waited until school started. I don't want to be in another long distance relationship after the way my last one went and what it did to me and my sanity, but I'm not going to dump him. At least he promises to visit.

Speaking of school, it starts in less than two weeks. Whoopeee. I've got my first journalism assignment of the new year tomorrow night, the twilight book 4 release party, and after that I really, really need to work on making the flag for the paper..

In any case, I'm going to the Mills on Saturday... or at least, I really want to go. If anyone wants to meet up with me and go, feel free! I want to dress up and go in loli, because I haven't gone anywhere in loli in awhile and it'll make me feel better I'm sure, but then I remember the whole "no person under ____(age here)____ can be here after (insert time)" and I'm like "hm... will they think I look young?" So I've gotta check the age thing on that in case I DO wear loli, cause I don't want to get kicked out at 6. D: I really just want to go to the hello kitty store and get some cute things for my senior year.

Anyway, uhm... talk to me! I'll be on aim till work and after. Bubai lovelies.

My AP lovely heart replica shoes arrived yesterday!

( Pictures, plus pictures of my meta special set dress... )

Belle, my cat, passed away yesterday, while I was on my way to work. I didn't find out until I came home.

Rest in peace, Belle. Hopefully you're not in pain anymore, and you can be with your original owner.

Though I only had you for four years out of your 14 year long life, you will always be the pet closest to my heart. I don't know what I'm going to do without you. I haven't slept yet, and I don't know when I'll be able to.

Also, I just realized, I've ordered things online before and still haven't gotten them. I think my collective total of money spent online but stuff never recieved = $60.

D:
(Says this because she wants to order the honeysyn graphic novel, but she never actually got the comic she ordered from them when it came out...)

Ew work time

My meta OP came in! Hurrah! That was very fast! And I don't see anything about a customs invoice, so...

HURRAH!

Sadly, my mom opened the package while I was asleep so I didn't get to open it myself.

;____________; nofair.

Anywho, work today. I'll post some pictures of the dress tonight afterwards, possibly! And maybe even some of me in it! XD; Mmm my first brand dress~ It's so beautiful... you have NO idea. ;_; And the lace has crosses on it! I couldn't tell from the picture! It's even more beautiful than I imagined~

ALSO MY OVARIES HURT AGHKJSFHASFAJSFAFJAHSFA

Meta shipped my item yesterday! Hurray! *hearts* I was worried about it because of something on the faq, but they just sent me an email!

Oh. And how I wish I could buy something from the AP summer sale. *sigh*

Next paycheck, I'm doing a baby order for that parasol, damnit! Two weeks! Two weeeeeks!

Need to sleep.. can't.. wt...f....

Work from 2:30 PM to 10:30 PM today Yaaaaaaaaay :DDDD

I just bought ribbons on Poupee girl because I wanted one of the yukata. That's what I get for just now joining the site and not posting anything (especially not posting anything that's really cute, because oh I posted stuff, but man =_= )

Oh well. It's adorable. I'm glad I bought it. Now I'm not super poor! xD

So I'm having a bit of a dilemma. I want to purchase some good lolita shoes, in whitexwhite because I don't have enough of a wardrobe to go with another color x white (though I do want some black ones for when I wear black >_<) but I don't know what to get. I was going to buy some white tea party shoes from nana_jun but she just sold out in my size like a few days ago! I almost want them in black, but my revelation on being sweet gothic has just begun, so I don't have anything with black right now (except my OP when it comes in.)

Also, I want to buy a headdress or alice bow for my meta special set, but oh, what kind! I don't know if I should go too sweet with an alice bow.. because it's not a sweet op. And of course, I could make one (which I might do anyway) so... bleh.

Also! I want to get to designing my next skirt... (not a dress this time! yay!) and I think I want it to be a bustle skirt, but then I don't know what to do with the bottom of the main skirt! I only have about 2.5 yards of that fabric I believe... hopefully more, I need to measure it, so I don't really know what to do. Scallops? My last scallops failed xD (but I still made them look cute) but I could always practice moar. BUT WILL I HAVE ENOUGH! If I do the bustle over skirt like the tutorial where it ties in the back like an apron... that's probably my best option to have enough stuff left... but what do I do with the front! Gruh!
(The fabric itself is so cute, black and pink (more of a classic pink) gingham... it reminded me of my favorite dress, AP mode girl.. there's an applique I bought for it too... >_> *is excited*)

In any case, when I get paid on Friday, I think I'm going to post a WTB shoe post on EGL_comm_sales and then throw in "I'm also looking to buy __________"

Though, I'm considering just doing an anna house order for myself, get some bloomers (I want another pair, one is not enough!), and some white shoes from them.. bleh. Shipping prices.

Oh. And lawl. I'm allergic to Amish soap, hence why I am not at work right now. =D +__+ I get props for being smart and rubbing it all over my face and then like.. exploding.

I.... just had a revelation.

o_o

I think...

I'm a sweet goth loli...

O_O

Because I really don't like straight up black... but if it's black.. with an obnoxiously bright color... I love it. O_O Magical Etoile in black, Fruits Parlor in black x pink, I love it all!

I want to see some black x mint...

But I still love white and pink and super light colors on light colors and of course I want all the crazy sweet decora jewelry. (My goal is to be as decora as faukengin! Is that spelled right? But, she's my decora loli hero.)

Anywai, I am drawing up the plans for my next dress, this time.. just a skirt. It's dusty pinkish and black, and reminds me of Mode Girl, my favorite AP dress.

But shower time is nao. >_>

also ZOMGMETASHIP THE OP~~ *want want want*

Just sent in my special order... >_<

But I accidently sent the list with my choices and info on it twice! It was all on one email, but it was on the email two times! I hope that's okay... I'll try to send them another email later.... >_>

OMG...

THE NEW META SPECIAL SET... THE CROSSES...

I'VE NEVER BEEN A SUPER CLASSIC LOLI OR SUPER GOTHIC, BUT OMFG.

I'm ordering the off white x black.

Or any color of the crosses, I don't care.

But omg.

It's so beautiful and cute.

I want one.

AND IT WILL FIT ME.

I asked my parents, and they said they'd give me a loan. AHHHHHHHH I AM SO EXCITED SHITSHITSHITSHIT swearing is bad OH WELL SO EXCITED.

The polka dots is more sweet like my usual style, but I'm in love with the crosses. Ahhh it's so great. So excited. So excited!

So, Eric just told me something that made me feel rather sick and annoyed and emo, so it's true, I'm not over everything yet--but I knew I wouldn't be, and it'll take awhile... but at least the process will be signifigantly easier than if I didn't have someone. Plus, he moved in yesterday! Lololz. (It could actually be a bad thing that he did, but oh well. xD We'll see how it goes!)

But I'm off to go take my mind off of life by being retarded with my retarded friends. The last issue of the paper came out today, and my story was on the front and it looked great and hurrah!

That's all. Myo.

I feel really horribly down, I figure it's all the things that have happened lately. First Linda's sister's friend getting hit by a train, and then finding out about Bambi being found that person found in the park near STL...

I don't know why I'm getting so depressed about it, but I am. For some reason I just don't feel like I want to be moving around or doing anything right now. School, work, everything I have to do, it feels like it doesn't matter and I feel like I can't do it.

I just want to curl up in bed, and do nothing for about a week, possibly a month.

Well I pretty much failed all of the ACT except the English section (reading and writing I probably still failed, though, but the plain English? I should be covered), and Eric and Marghi did officially break up, I lied.

As of yesterday. Because she likes someone else. Poor Eric. Oh well, an excuse to get drunk with my big brother! ;D (not)

I also hurt my knee. By tripping. On some grass. Now it's like, retarded, and I can't walk on it. I AM SO CLUSMY AWESOME LOLZ

I lied, they got back together last night.. of course... x_X How randomly serious.

bleh, though today is so nice, I feel horrible.

So.... I went to the IHSA Journalism Sectional Competition today. My category was Info Graphics, something I had never done before and only practiced for about a week ago after vaguely teaching self how to use Adobe Photoshop...

And I won first place.

o_o''

Even though I failed at using Indesign and using the freaking MAC. O_O''' but goodness! I can't believe I got first place for that, it was such a shock to me. While I did think I had an excellent design concept, the design itself was sloppy and had many errors that I couldn't figure out how to fix in indesign! So.. that means I get to go to the state competition in a week! THAT I will probably fail at. But oh well. xD;; I kept telling myself over and over today how "man, I am going to lose so bad..." and I got first place. How weird!

I'll post some magical pictures when people upload them. xD I didn't bring my camera. But the trip was fun! Though I am quite exhausted from running around the campus, and only sleeping for about three hours. And grah! Stupid Beast needs to charge his phone..... D< OR HE CAN'T COME OVER TOMORROW~! But yey, he loved the present I got him! Interpol CD!

mu ha ha.

Either way...

I'm very proud of myself! :D (even if I don't think I deserve it xD)

Now I think I may go pass out.

=D

THIS WEEK IS GOING TO BE SO FUCKING CRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAZY! D: ACTs, Work, Practice for State, OTHS Otaku meeting, Journalism story due, Digital story telling project.... O. M. F. G. highschool is crazy.


Eric and Margherita broke up as well... D: It's very sad, considering it looks like it's not one of those "break up and get back together the next day" things... he's very torn up about it. I don't want him to move to Texas with the Seans, either! Grah. He should get an apartment with Beast. ;_; Bwah... oh well. Other than that news, today was a wonderful day~!